I've tried a couple of times to sit down and write lately but I haven't been able to work out exactly what it is that I wanted to say. I have been feeling a bit adrift lately - not sure of what my role will be next year, not sure about my place in the school and how what I am doing is contributing to the greater picture. I love my job and I love all the little aspects that are involved in it (except, perhaps, the dreaded marking)! but lately I have been recognising the importance of being reminded that you are doing a good job. That acknowledgment and validation that we all crave from our leaders is a huge motivator - helping to keep us on track and to keep our spirits up when the chips seem to be down.
There is so much happening at the school next year and I am keen to get involved but wasn't sure about what the opportunities were going to be. Rather than sit around dwelling in the uncertainty (which is something I do too often -see My Fatal Flaw) I have decided to be proactive and to find out what is going on and what my role will be when it all starts happening.
Today I had a discussion with my boss and really told her how I was feeling and she gave me some really positive feedback and concrete details about next year. I feel now like I have some certainty in my role and like I am ready to face the next challenge. For me it is really important to feel like I am moving forward - I don't ever want to sit back and simply repeat things that I have already done so it was important to me to know that there would be more challenges in store.
I feel like I have been revitalised. There are still many details to work out and a long way to go before my role is really fleshed out the way that we both hope it will be but for the moment it is enough.